John Brodix Merryman Jr.
3 min readMay 14, 2020

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“Cognition is the opposite of sensation.”

Like yin and yang. Cycles of collecting and processing information. Expand, consolidate. Though how we process it, like food, is to feed our own models.

“Sapolsky goes into the cognition aspects of time and how having an easy food source just feeds the “cancer” of a society, even in gorillas. Wall street is the top down construct of a hoarding system with money run by psychopaths, sociopaths, and narcissists.”

Actually it goes down to bacteria. Think petri dish. One dimensional chess. Always and only forward. “Growth.”

“like working on dark matter when it’s just made up to fill the formula that doesn’t work in current measurements.”

What if wave collapse goes to the very edge of interaction, required to create information? Photons out of fields. So that gravity is not so much a property of mass, as mass is the more dense end of this spectrum of wave collapse. Then the contraction assigned to dark matter is the wave collapse in the higher part of the spectrum. Black holes as the eye of the storm, where any energy not radiated out in the process of wave collapse, is shot out the poles, as quasars.

“I’m reminded of a ted talk where it’s explained how autistic people (highly sensitive people are like that minus the issues) have little cognitive empathy (how you should feel) but a lot of affective empathy (sense of the situation). Psychopaths are the opposite, much cognitive empathy and no affective empathy. They don’t feel but calculate.’

My problem is too much sensory input. I remember as a child, laying on the porch, watching this ant, when it stopped and there was this tiny cone of awareness, waving about with its antennae. I came to realize what some people call “floaters” are others perceptions interacting with mine. This tendency to become an antenna to others perceptions has only grown more refined, that just getting sight of someone is like making eye contact. The light is like a wireless connection and I get those jolts of expression, emotion, perception, focus, occasional thoughts, words, etc. Much better out doing chores, by myself.

If you take a floater and have a line pulling it towards you, the effect is a classic heart shape. Especially if it’s glowing a bit red. Cupid’s arrow.

Study of the the more abstract designs in cave art and you will sense the impressions expressed. As Emerson put it, “We are but thickened light.”

“It’s funny that these highly educated engineers and scientists are perplexed why their designs have issues while the sensitive person can sense why.”

Light expands analog, while form coalesces discretely. Think how growth tends to be global, then when it crashes, societies have to coalesce locally. The Tower of Babel. Once the inspiration and drive fades, the managers take over and the parts stop working well together, as everything is quantified and qualified. Then corruption takes over, as everyone wants to get out more than they put in and the original inspiration becomes little more than slogans. Organisms within ecosystems. Positive feedback builds them up, then negative feedback pulls them apart. Waves rising and falling.

“We should be having ubi instead of bailing out big businesses, but that’s common sense and common sense is rare these days, almost bred out of humanity.”

Cheating on the foundations to put more gold in the penthouse. Eventually it does more than just trickle down.

“No wonder why I couldn’t handle calculus past a certain level, it’s just so disconnected from reality in that it becomes it’s own reality.”

Nature is far more complex than we can ever conceive, yet it is also part of a cycle, of filling out every niche and using every resource, so it selects for specialization and complexity. Then when the system exceeds its capacity, it consolidates and selects for adaptability. This versatility over specialization explains why humans, with their tactile abilities and omnivorous appetites, do much better in varieties of situations, rather than other species, which are more specialized.

“Markets, for example, are a level two chaotic system.’

Markets also respond to feedback. Like assuming the Fed will backstop the debt from imploding, so infinite levels of debt are just dandy. The feedback from the larger system is to keep magnifying the loop. Positive feedback eventually becomes negative feedback. Kicking the can down the road and it eventually becomes Sisyphis’s rock.

“ We weren’t created by a god just because it’s improbable for DNA to exist.”

Yet we are driven by this conscious desire. Like a fire, always seeking fuel. We want our cake and eat it too. Both the ideal and the transcendence. Infinity and beyond.

Best.

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John Brodix Merryman Jr.
John Brodix Merryman Jr.

Written by John Brodix Merryman Jr.

Having an affair with life. It's complicated.

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