Don’t give up on objectivity. Sometimes light is more useful than heat. It carries information much further.
The problem is the bs we are taught as objective, normal, the way things are etc.
When I was young, I would always try to guess things and invariably I was wrong. In fact it was like I was being teased by some little demon that would make things come out completely opposite of what I’d guess.
So then my mind would find things in the environment that seemed to mirror my state of mind. Simple stuff, like a particular stick, or just about any such thing and it was like my mind was grounding out a little static electricity.
After awhile it became habitual and I just had the sense of being part of my reality. Things just went down the rabbit hole. Do you ever experience “floaters?” The little spots on your vision? I would find they connected to lots of things, like other peoples attention on my little bubble of awareness. Yet on many different layers and there is constant peeling them away, such that they are also your own thoughts, floating away.
As a teenager, there was a particular girl I had a somewhat strained friendship with and one time there was this floater in front of me, glowing slightly red and I knew it was her. There was a line running through it, pulling it toward me and the effect was the classic heart shape. I guess the line was Cupid’s arrow.
After awhile, it gets hard to distinguish you from the rest, but eventually that bubble of self pops anyway.
Also, much of what passes for received wisdom is just stuff people make up, to explain what they don’t know.
For instance, we are mobile organisms, with a sequential process of perception and a narrative based culture, so we naturally think of time as the point of the present moving past to future. The reality though, with a little thought, is that change turns future to past. Tomorrow becomes yesterday, because the earth turns.
There is no literal “dimension” of time, because the past is consumed by the present, in order to inform and drive it, aka, causality and conservation of energy.
Time is an effect, like temperature, pressure, color, noise, etc. Think frequencies and amplitudes.
The energy, as process, goes past to future forms, as these patterns come and go, future to past. As consciousness goes past to future, while thoughts and feelings go future to past.
Think of what we experience as waves. Thoughts are like a cresting wave, where its form is clear and definite, but also receding into the past. Feelings are like the wave starting to build. We can only sense the pressure and turbulence, but the form isn’t clarified.
As for God, logically a spiritual absolute would be that essence of sentience, from which we rise, not an ideal of wisdom and judgment, from which we fell.
While it might be emotionally and egotistically pleasurable to assume our ideals are absolute, it is corrosive to assume we are universal rather than unique.
Sometimes when you look up at that hawk, you might sense its being. The light really is a wireless connection. You just have to feel it.
