For various reasons, a similar feedback loop occurred to me in my twenties.
I realized that while we think of time as the point of the present going past to future, it could as easily be described as the events going future to past.
Then I realized that is what time is; Change turning future to past. Tomorrow becomes yesterday, because the earth turns.
Yet we do go from past to future events. Think in terms of two billiard balls hitting, which creates an event. As this event recedes into the past, the balls go onto future events. Our brain and consciousness are like the balls, going past to future, while our minds and thoughts are like the events, going future to past.
As I peeled the layers of this, it became evident this relationship between processes and the patterns generated apply to everything. For example, in a factory, the product goes start to finish, while the process goes the other way, consuming material and expelling product.
As lives go birth to death, while life goes onto the next generation, shedding the old.
Then it eventually occurred to me this is the relationship between energy and form. Energy, as the dynamic, goes past to future, while the forms go future to past. While this may seem a repeat of the previous point, consider that galaxies are a dichotomy of energy radiating out, as mass/form coalesces in.
As biological organisms, we have the digestive, respiratory and circulatory systems processing the energy driving us on, along with a central nervous system to sort through all the information/forms precipitating out, as well as referee the emotions bubbling up. Motor and steering.
The feedback loop is that the forms direct and define the energy. Which being “conserved,” is always and only present. Though given its changing configuration creates time, there is no physical past for it to recede into or future for it to arrive from.
Basically time is an effect of activity, like temperature, pressure, color, etc. Frequency and amplitude.
Physics treats it as measures of duration, but duration is this present state, as events come and go.
There is no dimension of time, because the past is consumed by the present, in order to inform it. Aka, causality and conservation of energy.
It is like a tapestry, being woven of strands pulled from what had been woven.
Thermodynamics.
