I'm more feral philosopher than scholar.

For some reason the relationship between the absolute and the infinite started worming its way into my brain by my teenage years. They seem to be the parameters of reality. Black holes and black body radiation.

Ideals are more like the points of light in the middle.

Many years ago, a future in-law and Catholic priest tried interrogating my understanding of the Divine Trinity, being an Episcopalian. After about five minutes of my expanding on the absolute, the extant and the infinite, he crossed himself and walked away.

That's sort of been the metaphor for how most people think of my ideas.

Here is one of my more favorite books on religion;

https://www.gutenberg.org/files/30250/30250-h/30250-h.htm

An interview of someone trying to push the Overton window, in science;

https://worrydream.com/refs/Mead_2001_-_Interview_(American_Spectator).html