It started fairly early with me. As a younger child in a large farm family, mostly race horses and dairy cattle, I pretty much grew up having to do what I was told and while there was some degree of rebellion, I found it a very useful role to simply observe what is going on. I remember one time as a child, laying on the porch and studying an ant. It was walking along, then stopped and there was this cone of awareness waving around with its antenna. I would see occasionally the spots coming up on a herd of horses. Naturally I tried analyzing the implications, which the more it seemed natural that there would be some physical effect of our mental focus and concentration, the more this digitized, quantized, object oriented view that is the “normal” point of view, seemed odd. The “objects” required more effort and belief than sensing the energy field in which it is all projected.

Here is recent essay I wrote, that while it isn’t about this issue, does give some perspective on what I think of the modern world;

https://medium.com/predict/peeling-the-paradigm-1ceab7e774b0