Iva,

I have to say I'm pretty much motivated by my own frustration with a world that is essentially hostile to anything that doesn't adher to its assumptions.

Though I've also been very fortunate in growing up and living in a situation where I could somewhat avoid being part of the hive mind, in the world of east coast horse racing, where I went more for the farming and horses side, than the hustle side.

It is depressing the degree to which even the highly intelligent are so committed to this system, that they shut out any effort to see outside it.

Once a Catholic priest and future in-law tried to corral me on my acceptance of the faith and after a few minutes of conversation, he crossed himself and walked away. Which is the sense I get often.

Though back in the day, the belief system promised an afterlife and you were told to suffer through this one, so there was no way to logically refute it, but this system thinks it can just tell people they will be safe, secure and happy, if they just go along and that promise is falling apart, so in the not too distant future, clinging to this system will be clinging to a sinking ship and people are going to have to open their eyes.

Though many will just spiral off into the extremes on either side of this political divide.

Which is also beyond logic, as it is tribal, emotional and so logic is weakness, becuse it draws back from the edge.

Though my efforts have left me out over the edge in many different ways. Here is something on my views as to the current cosmology;

https://medium.com/@johnbrodixmerrymanjr/the-confessions-of-a-cosmic-heretic-5cd4c044b8ea